February 7, 2019-
I’m still working on channeling my intensity, properly. Most of my difficulties, as an autistic person, have come from not knowing when to dial back a bit. Fortunately, the progress I have made on this issue has come, courtesy of supervisors, friends and family who have been direct with me, without the cruelty that has come from others with narcissistic agendas of their own. I appreciate direct feedback, IF it is related to better doing the task at hand or concerned with my being a more whole human being.
I have, over the years since Penny passed, on occasion been drawn to women who befriended me, and, misreading their actions and statements, went off on woefully wayward tangents. Nowadays, I am supremely careful, along those lines. I remain a person of intense feelings, and these are more being channeled towards the well-being of my friends and family, as they define it.
So, my interest in the lives of people around me is less prescriptive, and more intuitive-a lot more measured, in the direction of empowerment. Life is richer that way.
A Sagittarian Seeker 
Don’t feel bad. I was tormented as a teenager and hate bedside manner with doctors or nice guys. They were the only ones nice to me, like your friends. I have a hard time not filling up with awarenesses and flooding thoughts. Too many ego deaths. Prolixin makes me a little stronger. Most of me is already dead. Oh well, I float happily away. Keep on swimming. Congrats on being human.
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You are not out of the game yet. Yes, flooding thoughts are a burden to so many people. I had a long period of such overflowing notions. Now, I am doing well enough, so that when people come into my life and try to drag me down into their sorry mud-fest, I slip away and find my way back to those who have my guard.
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I know you’ve probably gotten sick of the cliche predators at this point. Found me again, right? It’s like, get out of my habitat, or I’ll post stupid, incomprehensible math. Wanna hear a story?
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Sure, tell it.
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I was talking to myself. Sorry to be rude. I’m slap happy.
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Okay, your story, your rules. ❤
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I’m not going through any more of those ego deaths. No seeds allowed. I have assholes like this who think they’re so clever just because someone is young and trying to survive, doesn’t know. I hate Marilyn Manson and hope to end his reign on this planet. He just wants attention and greatness, to prove how we have no human rights. You could fix people? The last one was totally my fault because I enjoyed anger and pain. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SyFRiP3XR7M
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I am not a braggart who thinks he can fix people. I am more concerned with helping them fix themselves, provided that is what they want.
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I agree sometimes. I guess I’m being optimistic and think of a possible solutions midway. If you’re determined to do something/interfere. I won’t dwell on it too much.
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Do you ever get tired of people doing this to you? I try to laugh instead of cry. Sorry to spam. I’m hyper today. I love this video though. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=031Dshcnso4
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I have learned to take things in stride.
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Caution is always good in forming any sort of relationship. Those that are worthy will survive and grow over time, while those that are tangents disappear.
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So I have learned.
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Constructive criticism is always helpful but it some times still stings. However it is good when it helps us know ourselves better and permits growth. Keep growing!!
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Sometimes the source of the sting is benevolent. Then and only then, does real growth result from criticism.
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Oh, I feel for you.
Constructive feedback is fine but not criticism
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I appreciate the former, always.
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