November 7, 2015, Flagstaff- I rose early, for a Saturday, so as to get up here to Northern Arizona University, and take two of the three exams I must take, in order to obtain certification as an elementary teacher (1-8), in Arizona. I have several other certificates: Secondary Teacher, Guidance Counselor and Principal. The position I am now filling, as a substitute teacher, however, is not something I can continue to do, long term, without credentials.
I also think it is high time I moved through the self-doubt cloud, and showed my true abilities, both to myself and to the world at large. My spirit guides keep saying, “This day of yours will not be followed by night.” I know this means that the present opportunity will not be taken from me, by shallow politics or my own tendency to trip myself up.
This time, I will be okay, work-wise. This time, I know how to navigate the small circle which runs the school. In the past, I gave too much energy to my being an outsider. That status might still be extant, but the children are who matter most. I will be standing, at the end of the term, and at the end of the academic year.