February 7, 2019-
I’m still working on channeling my intensity, properly. Most of my difficulties, as an autistic person, have come from not knowing when to dial back a bit. Fortunately, the progress I have made on this issue has come, courtesy of supervisors, friends and family who have been direct with me, without the cruelty that has come from others with narcissistic agendas of their own. I appreciate direct feedback, IF it is related to better doing the task at hand or concerned with my being a more whole human being.
I have, over the years since Penny passed, on occasion been drawn to women who befriended me, and, misreading their actions and statements, went off on woefully wayward tangents. Nowadays, I am supremely careful, along those lines. I remain a person of intense feelings, and these are more being channeled towards the well-being of my friends and family, as they define it.
So, my interest in the lives of people around me is less prescriptive, and more intuitive-a lot more measured, in the direction of empowerment. Life is richer that way.