December 26, 2014, Phoenix- Every spiritual quest has a beginning, middle and end. The mid point of my present journey was in Truth or Consequences- quite a surprise, as I had figured on being in the mountains by then. The Universe has much figured-out, that it only reveals to us in layers. A snarky commentator on another Word Press site, angrily disputed the notion that we need focus on the Present. My take is that without that focus, the Future he so adamantly says SHOULD be our focus, presents itself as a chaotic jumble of unclear choices.
I am now in Phoenix, attending the 30th Annual Grand Canyon Baha’i Conference, so named because this is the Grand Canyon State. It is apropos in another way, as well. Here, we can collectively delve into a wealth of spiritual and social issues. Perhaps fortuitously, a major focus this year is our relationship to finance- both personal and communal.
I recognize that, before my own financial house gets seriously in order, which my heart tells me is about to happen, I need to complete some unresolved aspects of personal spiritual transformation. The humility part is down, and the discipline part is getting there. Tightening up on occasional use of coarse language, always done in trusting private, is definitely necessary now. Dropping “F-bombs”, even in a state of righteous indignation, is like popping a bag full of coal dust. It impresses few, and doesn’t do much to better a situation. So, you might say this is my early “New Year’s Resolution”. In that regard, what few such resolutions I make, I tend to keep. Making vows to self, and not keeping them longer than a few days or weeks, is the wicked sibling to greeting a newly-opened gift with “Just what I always wanted”, or dismissing a compliment with a sneering “Oh, THAAANK you”.
Transformation is like the journey itself. it never really ends. Even after our spirit and body bid each other farewell, the spirit moves on and on, and the body greets its friend, the soil, repaying Mother Earth, or in the case of cremation, the life-giving atmosphere, for having sustained it for so many years. The spirit never stops growing- even after plateauing a while, the move forward resumes.
I was reminded of this tonight, as the great Van Gilmer, a Gospel and Spiritual artist of the first magnitude, led his equally-accomplished adult children, and an impromptu choir of Phoenix-area singers, in a rousing set of songs from those hand-clapping, foot-stomping, and supremely energizing genres. “I made my vow to the Lord, that I never will turn back. No, I will go, I shall go, to see what the end is going to be.” This is what Christ called the “The end that shall have no end.” So, it continues- the end of 2014 is fast approaching. The beginning of 2015 comes swiftly thereafter. I must be ready, and I will go, I shall go.