I got a form letter from the Bereavement Coordinator of Penny’s hospice, a few days ago. I wrote back and touched base with him. It set me to thinking about what triggers thoughts of her, and of us, and how those triggers affect me.
Some of those triggers are:
Sunsets- I went through a period where I would shut the blinds, right before sunset. Now, I want to leave them open and let it be visible. We always enjoyed the sunset, no matter where we were.
Couples together- That’s a no-brainer, and the recent series of posts by some of my friends moving in together, planning weddings, even becoming a couple for the first time, actually makes me smile- a lot. You are going to enjoy one of life’s strongest experiences.
Dachshunds- Our little one kept us amused and feeling loved, for fifteen years. The dachshunds I have seen lately all act frenetic and happy, just like our “Lady”.
A phone call from our son- This is, naturally, something that raises my spirits. It’ll be less frequent now. He is at sea, somewhere in the Persian/Arabian Gulf.
Vegetarian cooking- Penny always had a goal of being a vegetarian and we worked at it, in fits and starts. I had an almost veggie meal tonight. Only the cocktail hot dogs interrupted it.
Her photos- I won’t put them away, ever.
I guess the triggers are actually helping me define my spot in the world.