June 5, 2019-
I came back down to Prescott, to support a gathering of friends, being one of the few occasions I am allowing myself to be here, the next two months. There is, simply put, much I feel I have to do elsewhere-starting with the Junior Youth (Middle-school age) gathering, this weekend, in which I will assist. Understand that I am taking full ownership of my choices.
The title of the post came about largely in reaction to this week’s slow news item about an ongoing “high level” feud, which I will not dignify by mentioning its specifics. I am not much of a fighter, for fighting’s sake. Threats to children and other vulnerable beings are another matter.
I see, though, that there is fair amount of quarreling that takes place. Fear seems to be the main driver- the old “fight or flight” choice is usually offered. Some fear not being taken seriously. Others fear the loss of their position or dignity. Still others fear even the loss of all they value. I am not cowed by those who act out of fear; neither will I necessarily accede to their demands. There are ways, through consultation, to remove fear-based decision making.
Ego is another impetus. If one is given to think of self as some sort of master, then scolding, berating or being otherwise forceful with those around self is the order of the day. I know of one person,no longer in my life, who has nonetheless recently tried to re-enter, with psychic threats of otherwise making my life in Prescott so miserable, that I will flee. None of it will work. Baha’u’llah once is said to have written that, unless one is so firm in faith, that not even the presence of all one’s enemies, with drawn swords, would cause vacillation, then the soul can not truly call self a true believer. I accept that, even without knowing the exact source. Besides, Penny and the other angels in my life are around to see me safely along.
I also accept that my friends and family will only value me, as much as I value them. The Universe operates on this principle. Were it not so, the human race would be even more hamstrung by imbalance than we already are.
I want, by patience and remaining present, to eliminate as many of the conflicts in my life as is humanly possible. Be back when I can, over the next few limited-Internet days.